The reflection of our own self can never be as perfect as the reflection on crystal water. I am a people watcher. When I watch strangers I create their worlds, make up a scenario of where they are going or what they are doing at that moment, and wonder about their pasts. Watching close friends is different game. You know their backgrounds, you know where they are in life, and you know how they act around you. What we do not know, and may never know, is what really goes on their heads! I think we all try to maintain some composure in life to allow others to see the best we have ; I personally believe the reality is that we are all insecure and trying to prove something to not only ourselves, but mainly to our friends and family. I wish we could put all of our good and our bad on a poster and say this is me – love me unconditionally . I was once even afraid to let my partner see me my unconditional thoughts. Deep down I care more about what others think about me than I do about h
Whether we place the expectation on ourselves or if it was expected of us, perfection is a goal we will never achieve. Because of my addiction I was able to finally recognize that what matters most in life is not achieving perfection or worrying about what others' think. What is most important is to be able to look in the mirror and know you are doing everything you can to be true to yourself which then allows you to